On ministry, having kids & the gift of free time

I can’t lie, I went to bed Saturday night dreading my alarm clock in the morning.

I had a day packed full of great things, but also seemingly endless responsibilities – up at 6:30am to get to church by 7:30 for set up/band practice. Leave band practice early by 8:50am to pick up two students for service, sing for two services, tear down and leave at 12:30pm to take students home. Then, thankfully, I got to grab a quick nap to get up again by 2:30pm to grab lunch for Jacob and head back to church by 3:30pm for youth group band practice/set up, then work middle school and high school events until 8pm. Finally, tear down until finished and drop off a few students on my way home. That weight only feels heavy knowing I have to return to my actual job on Monday morning.

But as I sat listening to Jacob give his message to the middle school students, I thought, there’s no place I’d rather be this afternoon. Sometimes the thought of upcoming responsibilities weighs me down, but when I think about it… how else would I want to spend my Sundays? Lying around watching TV all day? Not really.

Our lives are busy, as I’m sure yours are, too. But I’m thankful for what makes me “busy” – great conversations (hard ones!) with students, getting to know the nitty-gritty of their lives, and helping them chase their dreams and overcome things like stage fright and searching for love in shallow places. I’m thankful for early morning breakfasts with great friends, long runs that show me I really can do just about anything I put my mind to and coming home after a crazy day yesterday to a, “Thanks so much for all you do” from my husband.

I’m also thankful for the stage of life we are in right now – young and married without kids. There’s no way I could be so involved in youth and worship ministry if we had little ones running around. While the time for that will come one day, I’m so truthfully content where we are now. To be honest, I feel like we have 80 kids – all the ones we see Sunday and throughout the week at small group and during one-on-one hang outs. My heart literally breaks for these students and aches to do anything for them. So right now, I’m content with our 80 non-biological children, and all the time I have to invest in them. Man, God is so good, and I’m abundantly grateful for these sweet moments to remember that truth so clearly.